Random-ness

The hardest thing to do after write such a long post is...to give a title for it. Sometimes I just want to write everything......literally everything with no particular topic. But after I did that, giving a title gonna be such a problem. Heuh.

Being at home for a long time without doing anything important really give me a lot of time to think and reflect myself. Especially about what I did and what I did not do in the previous years and also my future. Yeah obviously about everything. My brain suddenly started to think about myself, my past, about people around me, about my parents, my brothers, about my long term plan, my future husband, about what I'm gonna be 10 years from now and so on. It simply started with a random thought, then gradually evolving into something big. I called it as my future.......or something I dreamed to be my future.

Make a long time plan actually is not really my thing because I'm not really used to it. But right now I think that's important. Setting up your goal and making your own standard help you to prepare a good strategy to achieve it. I used to live my life as it is. Did not have a goal to achieve really made me live leisurely. But it had became flat..................and I have nothing to be proud of. I always think that everything happened in my live just has to be happen. So I'm not regret it though.

But from now on, I need to change. Of course to be better. In every aspect.

Someone said that if you could tell briefly about yourself means that you already respect your life. And if I could tell you about myself, I'm gonna say that I'm kind of unique person. For the first time, people might think that I'm quiet and shy and hard to get along together. But after that, I could change completely. I could be funny, silly, and anything that you never expect. I love to make people laugh. That's the form of a simple happiness for me. It's true that sometimes I feel hard to start the conversation and to meet someone new.....and to get along with boys. Maybe because I'm still lack of confidence whenever I'm in a new situation.

That's why I want to change it. I already think about it and decided that when I officially entering a new environment, later, whenever I finally get a job or anything, I want to be a different me. That's my first goal. Yeay finally I set my goal!